growth: little updates & little hopes

hello.

writing just so the blog doesn't seem abandoned.

uhh so it is the 2nd of August, and uhm one month from now I shall be at a new place. alhamdulillah. i will be reading Psychology Industrial & Organisation at Universiti Malaysia Sabah, Kampus Kota Kinabalu. i hope everyone could pray that my studies will be eased, and that i would graduate safely with a pointer worth priding in hihu. i also hope that i will learn more things beyond my class lectures; life thingies.

so. i think i'll just update the little things i have learned upon leaving mrsm.

i had my first job as an admin assistant, before i started Foundation.

then while i was at Foundation. Foundation was packed, yes. but at this period i also told myself that i should let myself open to emotions. you see, back in mrsm, i kept brushing out my feelings away, thimking "no no i don't have time to feel this". so in Foundation, i sort of trying to accept sadness. honestly my emotional management was haywire. not that it's getting any better anyway hehe. but in foundation whenever i kept feeling sad i would lie in bed listening to sad songs. that don't sound nice is it? i also cry myself to sleep. i dont know. i still dont know how should i cope with feelings later in degree but i guess i should start 'desensitizing' myself again. that's easier

also in the love department. i still had never date anyone. but i am getting clear of what i want, and what i think i can compromise. i think that's some progress lol. i dont think that i want to start dating in degree too, but i guess i wont block out the possibilities.

personal growth. i think eversince Form 4 i have grown more assertive. i have been trying to think critically eversince in lower form, colossal thanks to my Bio teacher Ms Izzah for encouraging us. i still shy away from leading responsibilities, though. i preferred being followers in each organisation i entered, and the highest i tried were being secretaries. so i think managing my class field trip in Foundation is a huge leap. although i wasn't the class leader, but i managed to handle with ease. that should also be thanked to my fellow classmates for giving such kind cooperation. i am hoping to continue joining organisations, and perhaps trying to handle larger responsibilities. 

looking forward to learning new things in life hihi. like maintaining long term, long distance friendships huhu. yes there will be huge distance between all my close friends and i. 

till then, =)

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